Sad

 Being sad is something I feel often as I struggle with my own feelings and get stressed alot and over think things. I often become sad when I have done something stupid and upset someone by accident. I often cry and go up to my bedroom and lay with all my 50 teddies and just sit there looking at the ceiling for hours, while I think about what I have done. 

Sometimes I get upset and down for reason and I just hate myself because I havent done anything wrong and I just feel so down and upset that I cry and cry for hours upon hours. Sometimes when I get sad and i feel there is no other choice I try to hurt myself either with a razor blade or a knife. but these don't happen as often now a days.

Other times when I am sad I have to find something I enjoy and listen to that over and over to try to find happiness. However that is very hard as I don't have many people to support me. I like to talk to my dogs as they are always there for me even tho sometimes they can be a little to much. Thank you for reading tonight!